The Keep

yafictionquotes: Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl, Beautiful...

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 16:58:47 -0400

Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl, Beautiful Chaos

The Rush.

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 16:47:58 -0400

Smoke and gun powder filled the air, pops of gun fire and explosions overwhelmed my ears. Though it was training and the bullets were blank and the explosions were made from simulators. I felt the very thrill and excitement of battle. I could feel my adrenaline begin to pulse through my veins and the crave for action scream up through my veins and into my brain. The energy almost made me forget the reality that took place as I dove into my own dimension of space and time. The Grid square that I fought in became all I knew as I trapped myself into this battle. There was no thoughts of home, there was them and me those fighting beside me. With all this happening in a instant… I wonder if I will lose myself through the thrill…

Becareful of what you wish for.

Wed, 27 Feb 2013 16:59:18 -0500

I wanted a trail by fire, a chance to prove myself. Just at what cost? Cause where I will be walking has the blood of many of my brothers already.

Good Guys

Wed, 30 Jan 2013 02:13:29 -0500

Good guys die out because we let them.

Sometimes you just don’t have that time anymore to do...

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 15:23:14 -0500

Sometimes you just don’t have that time anymore to do everything you wanted. And all the time left you have is to use on bettering yourself. In hope that it will better you enough to continue on after you face you greatest challenge so you could over come it, and then continue to do everything you wanted.

Sometimes… you just have to stand up and fight.

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 11:30:00 -0500

Sometimes… you just have to stand up and fight.

Realized I have been missing out on a bunch of episodes! Need a place to legitly watch the most...

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 11:29:09 -0500

Realized I have been missing out on a bunch of episodes! Need a place to legitly watch the most mathematical show ever. Meaning all episodes… anyone know a place? - Sean

New Year

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 21:04:59 -0500

Here I sit in the middle of the night… Contemplating if everything I might of done so far was even right? These thoughts consume me once again, “What should I do God?” I ask looking towards the heavens as if I was staring directly at God. But I know, that not everything I have done is right, and there is nothing I could do about it. I need to press on though, and fix what I can and drop what I cannot. I made a promise to myself this new year, and this year will be the most insane and craziest yet. Of course I may not making to the next year due to my work but I don’t mind as much anymore if I could just live with myself. I feel so desperate though to feel that “connection” with someone once more before I step out to my greatest endeavor. But I have been so ungrateful of all these opportunities that I have been presented with that I have lead on many because I was unsatisfied of whom I was chasing and simply have hurt many unintentionally. But I know now that I probably need someone to help make it through this war, even though I will probably hardly ever contact anyone throughout the whole tour. I need to take those risks, granted they could lose interest, or myself may down the road. I’m afraid I may not have another chance, even if the candidate is a unlikely choice. Because that’s just being judgmental before I truly get to know them. New year, new me. God be with through this all. Cause I am young, and I am going all out this year.

Finally... Its over

Thu, 30 Aug 2012 02:57:22 -0400

No more dust, sand, piercing cold winds…

No more stone T-walls, Constantine wire, or tents full of holes…

I am back in civilization… finally, only twice did I leave that mountain for a few

hours out of my whole two months spent there.

Wish we all made it back safely, but one brother did not. Thankfully his state did

not worsen. And he was shipped back early.

Now I found myself just staring at all these items and materials I was

surrounded by in the PX. I wasn’t exactly sure if I was dreaming or not.

I was even completely grateful of a toilet that flushed and a mattress for

something to sleep on. I even bought 5 different candy bars because I had

had 3 musketeers and pop tarts one too many times in my stay.

Well I will enjoy what I can, for next summer I will be back in it. Just

somewhere far worse.

Left over time.

Sun, 29 Jul 2012 22:11:37 -0400

I lay here in my tent pardoning the thoughts in my mind. Speaking whispers of small prayers to the fallen. Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Too much thinking on the free time, there is a constant need to occupy my mind then to let it wander. To let it drift into irrational questions. Who may be next? Will it be me? Or my friend next too me? Or someone I don’t personally know? What is everyone else doing? Do they even remember were still out here? Useless thoughts that if they lingered in the head too long they would grow into a fear which would only worsen my situation. War is war, as I walk the fence line and look off into the distance I could feel their very eyes staring, watching, being fixed on my every move. It is a awful feeling to have at my back, but my duty must be done regardless.

I find myself now on some mountain top in some remote location. Living inside a tent with holes...

Fri, 06 Jul 2012 15:52:01 -0400

I find myself now on some mountain top in some remote location. Living inside a tent with holes wearing four layers to keep off the cold. The warmth from this labtop is just amazing right now. Its funny how we all keep things together here, especially being red on water right now. Celebrated our forth with a small bbq and ate some delicious steak. We were not prepared for the weather, were just glad its not winter time though. Even with all of these conditions including all the large spiders, scorpions, centipedes, and whatever other creepy crawlies I have yet to see. And all the other dangers that the enemy has in store. I can’t help but think I would rather be here, making history. Then sitting on my bed in Germany where its safer.

Some last thoughts

Sat, 23 Jun 2012 15:28:18 -0400

I have to thank God for giving me such a experience on this road to where only he knows where it goes. I wish I could be more thankful, I am blessed with such a grand life. But still the thoughts and feelings that constantly present themselves in my mind and in my heart almost tell a tale of something else. Last night I found myself in a bar with many other soldiers and locals. It was such a great time I was about to get lost in it, but then I took a long moment to observe my fellow brothers and sisters in arms. Of course we were celebrating because Germany won the game against Greece. But there was also a different agenda that only we knew that the locals did not know. I saw fellow comrades who I never thought would stand up in front of a crowd hop on the stage and sing their heart out to karaoke regardless if the words were in sync or not. I saw guys who are shy suddenly turn into confident bachelors and walk right up to a girl and talk to them or even asked them to dance. Such much happiness to cover up the hidden sorrow for those of us who would leave here very soon to some far away land doing what we trained to do. That was something that only you could spot out if you were going as well. They were living up the night and making the best out of the time we had left. A simple song as “lean on me” brought all of us singing out of our hearts. We were just about all we were going to have out there. Being here away from everyone else was harder then I realized it would be. I spent many nights losing most of my sleep so I could have a small conversation hopefully with those back home. My dreams are all filled with home and past happiness for the last couple weeks. And honestly waking up to the reality of where I actually was took small tolls on me throughout the days. Desperately I would try to remember what once was, thankfully technology has provided me with facebook and internet so I could still remember their faces. These dreams usually have me hanging out with a friend of mine having a conversation and just having a good time. Or someone just holding me in the arms or visa versa. Just the small simply things that could change the whole out come of someones day. And when I wake to find that person not in my arms or I wake to find myself talking to no one it brings just a slight sadness to my heart and a blur of thoughts to my head. It is hard, but I cannot stop and go back. I swore a oath and by my honor I will ensure that I see it through. Because I didn’t come here just for me. And neither did everyone else who feels the same thing in this base.

Making peace is much harder then I imagined. Especially since everyone else is asleep when I am awake. I will spend a good amount of time though in a church or somewhere quiet. Only got one life here, its best that I make it right.

A different armor needed.

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 14:45:00 -0400

They have me wear this armor so it may hopefully protect me from bullets, shrapnel, and whatever else the opposing combatants throw at us. But it isn’t bullets and shrapnel that I need armor for. I need armor for my soul, because too often in combat does the very humanity of a man becomes tested. Simple it may seem to go over down range and engage and destroy all enemy combatants. Come back in one piece physically? No problem. Come back who I was before? I know that won’t happen. Its about coming back with as much of yourself as you can as before. That is my fear, that this PTSD or whatever else will make me lose myself back down range. You can’t take things to personal in war. A soldier’s duty is to be a soldier, and it is the same for the other side. I will keep my morals and my honor. In hope, God blesses me with the ability to keep them, and myself. Id rather not come back the shell of the man I was before. May he place a suit of armor for the soul upon me. I am a man of the sword who has sworn a service, I will see my time through regardless of the darkness that I will face.

WHITE CHOCOLATE MACADAMIA NUT COOKIES… they will not last...

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 15:08:26 -0400

WHITE CHOCOLATE MACADAMIA NUT COOKIES… they will not last the night…

runnersadvice: Valid argument…

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 14:59:34 -0400

runnersadvice:

Valid argument…

My Challenge’s that I plan to accomplish while im...

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 14:38:17 -0400

My Challenge’s that I plan to accomplish while im stationed in Germany.

Bravery

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 14:04:00 -0400

Everyday I constantly pass someone in my barracks. A place filled with not only soldiers, but all infantryman. Its hard to realize it at first, but everyone who lives in this barracks with me was another man who was willing to sacrifice himself for something he found worth fighting for. Whether if he was a patriot fighting to protect his nation, or was someone who simply wanted to go to college but didn’t have the money to pay for it. Each fellow brother in arms here is willing to face the very heat of battle in order to take a step further in their life. It is a honor to face such trials with such brave men.

Photo

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 13:39:35 -0400

To conquer fear, sometimes you have to embrace it with your arms...

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 12:35:30 -0400

To conquer fear, sometimes you have to embrace it with your arms wide open.

Home

Sun, 03 Jun 2012 16:32:00 -0400

Home is a place that calls deeply within you. Far in the depths of your heart, and your soul. I find it natural to feel comfortable at Home. But you know its your Home once you leave the place and your thrown into the unknown and all you could think about is unknown. You know its your Home if your even willing to give up seeing it, just to fight to make sure that your Home still exist. Regardless if you feel your at Home at a place, or when your with someone you care for, or even a group of people you care for. Home is just something you know is worth fighting for.